Translation of "لدي‬‫ّ‬‫" in English

‫وشعرت بأنني خارج ذلك العالم.‬ ‫وكان لدي‬‫ّ‬‫ شوق عميق‬ ‫لأكون جزءًا من ذلك العالم.‬

And I could feel I was outside. And I had this deep longing to be inside that world.