Translation of "‎포기하는" in English

가해자들을 고소하길 포기하는 와중에도

and deciding not to pursue legal action against the people who had hurt me,

‎포기하는 심정으로 ‎해변으로 올라왔죠 ‎뭔가 신경이 쓰여서 ‎왼쪽으로 살짝 틀었는데

I'd kind of given up and was going back to the shore. Something just made me veer slightly to the left.